Here I have created two separate pages for my blogging. This one is my open blog. Wanna find out more about what's been going on in my life, just check out this page!
Work has been great. It's really been great. I have also been looking for work for a second job that is, it's difficult being that I don't have a car, or whatever, but I at least can ride my bike to and from work everyday currently!
Church was good last night, talked about how Love is the greatest gift God gave us. Everything we do must be done in Love for our fellow neighbor - no matter what it is or how you feel about it. Everything done in Love is uplifting and building up of others. It never tears them down and it always encourages. A lesson I am hard pressed to learn.
My friend Russell turned 40 yesturday, Happy birthday to him! I'm hoping I can do something for his birthday - though it is late... But that just depends on how things go in the next couple of months.
I'm hoping too to get my laptop up and running again! LOL it's been down and out for a week now, it's kind of tough using my laptop for more things than I'm used to doing with it. I'm hoping I will get to write my novels again soon too. I don't have them on this computer, so I can't write them until my laptop is up and running. Sucks.
You know the hardest lesson to learn is to let my anger and resentment go? It's hard for me to let it go, why, i really don't know... maybe I'm just stubborn?
I've got a lot on my mind tonight, thus I can't sleep. I have an idea for my novel, but I can't write it.. GRRRRR.... lol well that's ok. I'm not really worried about it. It works out anyway :)
You know something, that devil is very sneaky in his dealings. You see I've been trying to walk in the ways of the Lord, trying to understand His laws and commands, but everytime I get closer and closer to the Lord - the devil whispers...as soft as a feather, and as persistant as a rash his voice enters my ears... why can't I ignore it? Because I've fed that voice of rebellion so long, it's stronger than me. But I know I can still refuse to listen to it, if I bury myself in the Word of the Lord!
Recently I fell into my old ways, my old resentment habits. I used to continually live in that despair, but now it only affects me on occassion... not as commonly as it used too - which means that since I've been in the Word, I've been feeding the Spirit more than the rebellion within me. Making the Spirit even stronger within me - to reveal the wrong and the right choices I make.
Recently I made a terrible choice to listen to my anger and bitterness instead of forgiving and letting it go. I hurt those around me by doing so... not just myself.
I have since asked forgiveness from those that I hurt, even the Lord gently corrected me.
"The Father disciplines His sons out of love, not out of cruelty." (Para) Jesus spoke of this, that we are all the Father's adopted children, out of His great love and mercy upon us, He corrects us when we are wrong, ever so gently - even if it feels like a heavy blow, it's still gentle.
I'm grateful for this discipline. That just means that God the Father loves me more than anything. Just like my own father does.
Anger blinds the truth from us, bitterness leaves us parched of life. Releasing that anger, the truth is revealed. Setting aside bitterness brings fruits of living life to us. A hard lesson, one I'm still learning.
"All have fallen short of the Glory of God." (para) the Word states this, boy is it ever true...
Anyway, I better get some rest, I gotta work tomorrow. So goodnight. May your blessings ever fall upon you by the mercy and graces of the Living, Loving, Merciful, Forgiving, Jealous, Awesome God in Heaven.
~KDF~
