Yep, just as the title states! Good days are ahead and the bad ones are a thing of the past!!!
Me and Les are getting a car Aug 2nd - then we are outta here the very next weekend! Oorah! We finally have enough by then to put down for a decent car and we already know that we are outta this place for good!
I'm totally looking forward to it, believe me! I'm sick of being treated like a slave instead of an adult and I'm sick of hearing complaining crap all the time! I'm sick of being stressed out, of having my Lessiebear treated like he's worse than dirt by his own mother! Finally, she'll have to do EVERYTHING on her own - including cleaning up after herself! When we are outta here, we don't care where we go, as long as it's not here!
We plan on moving closer to our jobs, which is fine, I'm hoping we can find somewhere that's not too bad priced, since we also are saving for our baby.
But once we have the car, I'll get to visit my parents a little more often than I've been able too. I really miss my dad and mom and sister. I'll get to see my family! I may even get to visit my church family New Life/Vision Church in Plano!
Me and Les are sooooo ready to get away and be on our own, we are ready to just have our own space and privacy and peace and quiet! Oh and I can't wait! Even if we are living in a hotel for a little while, it'll be cleaner and better than this place! But honestly, I do thank God for letting us stay until we get our own place... its not that I'm ungrateful, it's just I'm tired of having NO privacy or quality time with my Lessiebear because of his mother always butting in and trying to be the center of everything. When she's around I can't even have a CONVERSATION with my lessiebear without her butting in and making some stupid comment no one cares to hear! So I've kept my mouth shut and don't talk at all to her or around her because I'm tired of it.
Les and I deserve to have a little time to ourselves, without someone always interrupting! Oh it WILL be nice not having that blasted stupid yapping beanie baby (her stupid dog chihuahua that's so overweight it can't even lick itself clean) around when we are moved out! OMG that will be heaven! Don't get me wrong, I love dogs, but a chihuahua is NOT a family pet I'd choose unless it was PROPERLY trained! I mean this dog barks at EVERYTHING - it's ridiculous!
Anyway, Tomorrow July 29 is my doctors appointment - I hope to hear good news. I've been taking amoxacillin for GBS, hopefully it takes care of it. I've also been trying to NOT eat too much - but even when I have just a little my stomach hurts and says it's full... I guess that's normal with pregnancy...
I will be posting any REAL news I find out.
I really look forward to moving out, if you can not tell... Right now Les is asleep - he fell asleep while I was reading to him from "The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship". But who could blame him, he'd been getting very little sleep lately, and all because his mother couldn't think of being courteous about letting him rest and regain his strength. Saturday, at 1am he went to pick up his father from the truck yard - understandable, but he didn't get home till 4:30am. His mother comes barging in (not even bothering to consider KNOCKING to see if we were dressed or covered.) and wakes him and me up at 8:30am! so him, his dad, and his uncle could work on the shed! Heck, you do that to my father, he'll explode! 4 hrs of sleep and a FULL day of hard work out in TEXAS heat!? Les was VERY irritated and VERY upset, VERY tired and EXTREMELY exhausted. So when he picked me up from work that night, at about 11:00PM - he was upset and not too happy since he was so tired (sounds like my dad back in the day! LOL)
Well, we get home, he takes a shower, climbs into bed and falls asleep about 12:30am (he took a shower we got home about 12am). Sunday morning, at 7:30am his mother does it again! BARGING into our room, wakes us up, without knocking - mind you, and orders him to get up and work on the shed again... Les still hadn't recovered fully from the day before!
That's just selfish and wrong in my book. He really should have been allowed to rest until at least 9 or 10 am due to the fact we got home so late from me having to work and him having been working all yesterday on 4 hrs of sleep... I'm sorry, but if she thinks she's gonna be calling us to come do ANYTHING at this house when were gone, she can FORGET IT!
I was raised to respect my elders, true, it's taken me some time to learn to do that, but my parents raised me right. I respect Les' Dad, I PREVIOUSLY respected his mother too. His dad hasn't really lost any of my respect - mainly because I respect my father (though I rarely seem to show it) and I guess it stems from that. But his mother, that's a bit of a different leaf. At first when I first met her and a few months after that, I respected her highly. I wanted to do things for and with her to help her... But that changed when her real colors began to show. You see, I grew up with a sister who (at the time - no offense hannah but it's true) liked to manipulate people to do her biding and play the pitty/guilt trip on you if you didn't. So I was quick in spotting Les' mothers actions and words - especially since they never EVER added up or matched!
She'd say one thing, but do another. She'd blame Les or someone else for an issue she created or caused. She'd order everyone to pity her because she was "so feeble"... whenever someone wanted to do ANYTHING without her, she would play the guilt trip/pity me act. She'd always say she didn't have money to spend, but then turn around and blow $300 on food that she'd never touch save once, because she would rather spend more going out to eat. She says she's a christian, but turns around and gossips, puts others down, talks about stuff that doesn't make any sense and always lives in the past. She complains about money and is always wanting more even though she has enough crap in the house, she buys stuff continuously... This has been going on a LONG time, and honestly, she's lost ALL my respect for her especially when she abuses my kindness and the kindness of Les (her own son she treats worse than that stupid chihuahua!)...
Now, since she knows that I'm pregnant, she thinks she's gonna have a say in my baby's life... EVEN LES says she wont, and I've already told him that I don't want her there for the birth (that sounds harsh but if you could only glimpse at what she tries to invade on, you'd agree. --- If you know my sister, whom I LOVE entirely even though we fight like cats and dogs... if you knew our past together, how we would hate on each other all the time, or try to manipulate one another... you'd catch a GLIMPSE of how Les' mother treats me and Les and how she acts around the pregnancy! - -- She's WORSE than my sister EVER could or had been!)... So, I told Les that I didn't want his mother there at all, his father was more than WELCOME to come, but NOT her. Les also feels my parents would be a better choice if we had to leave our child in the care of someone else for a short time like a weekend or something. I agreed of course! My parents are SAFER than his mother!
So, when the baby is born... my family (mom, dad, sister and her husband and kids) are welcome, his father is welcome, my friends and those I've invited are welcome along with his friends... and ESPECIALLY my new sister-in-law! Shout out to JEN!
Well, I know God says not to judge others. To look at the log in our own eyes before we try to remove the splinter in the other persons (or something to that effect), and trust me, I have issues too - and I'm not really judging HER I'm judging her fruit (which God did say we could as christians to other christians!) and her fruit is sour and gross.
Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed now... even though I'm not really tired. I'm just trying to hope and pray for the best tomorrow. Anyway, take care, and may God keep a silver lining in your cloudy days!
God bless! Oh, and please pray for Les' mother, though I have revealed her nature to my readers and it may come across that I dislike her, it's not that at all - I'm simply stating what I've seen and how she's acted towards me and Les since I've been here. I love her, but can't stand her and don't ever want to be around her because of her attitude and her actions. But I know that God loves her even in those moments when I feel I don't want too. So please pray for her, that God would become more than just a thought to her, that he would become real and present in her life rather than what he is now to her...
TTYL
