Wow, been a little bit since I last posted on here, sorry about that... I know most of you are curious to what's been going on - I hope you have a great day (even though your sitting there reading this pathetic excuse for a blog HAHAHA) anyway, here we go :)
Usually I have a picture up here, but today I am going to have nothing - sad I know, but it's all good :) ON WITH THE UPDATE!
Hmmm, I don't recall where I last left off but, here is an update on Lessie....
April 2nd Lessie quit using dip/snuff tobacco. The first week was the hardest out of all of it I believe, because the nicotine craving and all the stress that was built up during that week. I mean, his dad came home then had to be gone earlier than the buttcrack of dawn, then he was also looking for work and stuff - all that stress didn't help matters. However, he conquered his craving each day with the help of the Lord!
Each day was a struggle - the biggest test came when he had to visit the tobacco shop in town... It was only a week and a half since he'd stopped, but he overcame the urge and remained true to becoming tobacco free! I was extremely proud of that first test.
The second test came shortly after that when we had to visit the tobacco store again, same reason as last time, but this time when we went Les didn't have ANY trouble with the craving or habit. As he did before... He walked in, talked to the people there, did his business and walked out! Then when we got to the car he turned to me and told me, "I didn't want any..."
He has no idea how proud I am of his overcoming that ball and chain! He has been Tobacco free now for 33 days (as of the time I am writing this). He is doing so well too!
Not only that, but after he quit, he found a great job working as Ranch hand close to home and also he's found incredible favor with his boss :) Thanks to God's handiwork I am so happy for Lessie and all the things that are happening with him through God's handiwork :)
Another thing that Lessie is accomplishing through God's help, is he's almost completely debt free! This month (the month of may) he has 2 bills to pay off before he will be completely debt free - as of JUNE 7th 2013 LESSIE WILL BE DEBT FREE!
Of course, I'm the one budgeting for everything, but honestly I do not hold anything away from him, I let him know what's for bills and what's not then it's up to him to abide by it - and he does :)
These things are such great accomplishments I can't even begin to express my gratitude for all the prayer we've received, are receiving now! Lessie grows stronger in faith each day, I see the fruits of it each day in small things he does or doesn't do... I see him changing for the better - not for me, not for his family, but for himself and for God. I don't want it any other way!
The growth in him is spectacular!
He no longer puts himself down.
This is good news too :)
Also, he smiles more, he laughs more, he's got more energy, he's starting to show who God made him into... A godly man and a man who is God's masterpiece.
Our relationship has only gotten stronger the more we are together. Every chance we get, we do our best to spend it with each other. We get our alone time - sure, everyone needs that - but I'm so glad, Lessie spends time with me. He and I may just sit in the room and enjoy a game together, or drive around together, or walk together, or whatever it may be, but we try to be together - I love it. Lessie isn't the clingy type, but he's a strong man. He holds onto me tightly but he doesn't squeeze the life from me either.
Lessie encourages me, he stands by me, he listens to me - even when I'm upset (which is odd...I'll explain in a bit) - he claims me in public in sweet ways not overly possessive ones, he makes me laugh, smile, and makes me very happy just being with him.
We've been together for almost 8 months now, officially 8 months May 24th, but we haven't really fought. Sure we've argued a little, here and there, but honestly we've never really fought. We don't go to bed angry at eachother, not even if we are tired... we've always found a common ground, meeting in the middle so to speak... But in 8 months we haven't fought as I've seen people do... I know the time is coming, but I hope it doesn't come at all - simply because I want a strong relationship before the bigger fights come... if they decide too.
But we don't fight, in fact we argue - say our piece, yell at each other maybe, but then we take a deep breath, apologize and it's done. No foul play is done... no harsh hateful words held on to, no anger bitterness, nothing - which is fantastic.
We've seen each other through some rough spots, still our relationship is stronger than ever, we overuse "I love you" and actually mean those heavy words. But I want to tell you why our relationship has only gotten stronger...
God. Jesus Christ's hand is on our relationship. Because Lessie has stepped into the spiritual role as the head of our personal house, he has God as the head of him and he's the head of me, as is proper in the Bible. The more Lessie learns about God's power, the more I see the growth and fruits of that growth within him and through his actions and words.
God put us together - true, our relationship started out rocky and difficult, but in the difficulty and trials it blossomed and turned into something purely beautiful.
That is why we are so strong.
As long as God continues to be apart of our relationship - NOTHING can make us stumble.
Now an update on me...
Since March nothing has really happened, I've been doing well and yes still trying for a child, but only if it's in God's grace that he allows us to have one.
God hasn't quite opened the door for me to get into trucking - I'm guessing God has a different plan and I just don't know what it is yet...
Anyway, I'll be happy to say adeu, I've been typing about 30+ min.. I wish you all the best and have a great day everyone :)
I've lost weight again, since March I've gone back down to a 22W :) I'm so happy :) anyway take care LOVE YOU ALL...
