- I'm 24 now
- I have a betta fish named Zachary (Zach Zach for short)
- I go to a church called New Life Church
- I have the coolest job: I'm a Nanny!
- I care for children from 18 and below all the way to newborn :)
- I have a sister, a brother-in-law, a mother and a father (pretty normal really)
- I am writer.
- I love writing and especially short stories or stories that bring passion and life to each person who reads it.
- I love to paint
- I paint when I am feeling emotional, it helps me deal with real life issues.
- I enjoy reading
- I read books that are filled with action, adventure and all sorts of great story lines.
- I love animals
- dogs, snakes, spiders, and wolves are my favorite kinds ^_^
- My birthday is Nov. 18, 1987
- Really lame, I know. It sucks being right before Thanksgiving and Christmas... no one really has any time to celebrate so yeah, kinda sucks.
- I enjoy working on things with my hands
- I like cars and doing things like that and working on things that make me think. I don't like girlish things, but eh, oh well.
Basically that's a quick description of me, now for the update.
Recently, I have started working on getting health insurance. So that I can get my thyroid checked. Seeing as I have family genetic history of health issues like that, I'm hoping that I don't have anything wrong, but if I do, at least I'll get it taken care of.
I am moving out of my parents house in 1 day. I can't wait. I'm finally getting go somewhere, someplace I'm actually needed. It's really nice. I also will be getting a car and looking to get a second job just for the little things. Amazingly God has been a huge part of my life. True, it's hard to keep a positive look, but I'm so blessed, I know I am.
I learned another hard lesson the other day. Promises are meant to be broken. Especially when they are made for spending time with someone.
See, I haven't really spent any time with anyone of my family members - they are always too busy or just don't want to hang out. They wonder why I am never wanting to hang out with them. Anyway, Feb. 27, 2012, I was supposed to able to spend the DAY (that's 24 hrs for those of you who can't count) with my mother. SHE PROMISED SHE'D TELL MY SISTER SHE COULDN'T WATCH THE KIDS NO MATTER WHAT! But, what happened? As soon as we set the date, my sister calls about her freaking stupid car! Then, I take a SHORT 1hr 30min nap to get rid of the pain in my side so I could enjoy the time with my mother AS I WAS HOPING TO, but within an instant, I was replaced by my niece and nephew simply because my sister couldn't get another babysitter to watch her kids for a short time!
I understand things happen, but here's the thing - EVERY TIME I am doing something or planning something with my mother, EVERY TIME, this isn't something that is just once or twice, but EVERY EVERY EVERY EVERY TIME, something comes up with my sister and then I have to take a backseat to whatever my sister is wanting done.
You know, I'm my mother's flesh and blood, borne of her womb, and I have been REPLACED so freakin' easily by my little niece and nephew - so much so that my mother never has time for me, but she has time for her little grandkids and my sister... So now, you see that I have been watching the patterns. Not just this time, but EVERY TIME.
I am glad I am moving out, because I think God knew that I needed people who actually cared about me enough not to shove me aside the moment something else comes up. That's why I really like being around my friends, because at least I know that they care, that if they say they are going to do something and it's planned, (sure things happen at times and plans change but not every time it's planned), that it will be done.
So when I move out, I'm taking everything that has to do with me, all my stuff, my drawings, paintings, and all that stuff with me. So that they can forget me without any guilt or anything to remind them of who I am or was. Because they have REPLACED me with my niece and nephew. They have pushed me aside as if I am nothing more than a passing leaf. I was so happy to spend time with my mother, but you know what, it's so wrong that SHE would put her grandkids above her OWN DAUGHTER!
That's what's wrong with me today. They keep telling me "Things happen, get over it" but when it is REOCCURRING EVERY TIME something is planned, then no, that's just negligence.
So, I will leave. Making easier on them so that they don't need to worry about me. They are happy with their replacement children, I am glad they are.
Now, I will deal with this pain the same way I deal with all the rest. But I need to get in the Word, before my anger and hurt get the better of me, and I say something to my parents that I will regret. (Because I'm not going to say that I'm leaving them alone and I'm not telling them I am going to leave no trace of me behind.)
I'm hurting, I'm angry, I'm upset. But most of all, I forgive them. But I will not tolerate it anymore. Once I'm gone, I'm gone. I've been replaced one to many times, I've been pushed to the curb too many times. Its enough.
This is my update.
Good day, God Bless.
Sincerely,
Katie
